A DEVASTATED couple have spoken of the tragic loss of their precious baby who was stillborn.
Ann-Marie Scotney and Carl Gorse’s perfectly-formed son Aston Troy Thomas Scotney-Gorse was born on Sunday weighing 9lb 10oz.
But the heartbroken couple will never hear their baby’s first cry, after being told two days before his birth that his tiny heart had stopped beating and that he had died inside his mother’s womb.
Today, Ann-Marie, 26, and Carl, 33, told the Hartlepool Mail how little Aston was now “with the angels” and how they were trying to come to terms with their loss.
“I hear him at night crying in my head and all I want to do is hold him and feed him,” said Ann-Marie, who has not yet even cradled her son. “I was unconscious after the birth because I lost six pints of blood and they had to take him away for a post mortem examination so I have not had the chance to hold him yet.
“It just feels unnatural only to have seen him in pictures.”
She added: “When I first woke up I thought he was still alive and Carl had to come and tell me that he wasn’t and it was then I remembered.
“It still hasn’t sunk in yet though, I’m just heartbroken.”
Unemployed Carl, who is also a keen photographer, said: “It was awful having to go and tell Ann-Marie that Aston wasn’t alive and that he wasn’t coming back.
“We were so looking forward to having a baby and now that’s been taken away from us. It’s just terrible, it really is.”
He said his five-year-old son Carl Thomas - or CT as he is known - from a previous relationship, doesn’t understand what has happened to his baby brother.
“CT doesn’t understand, which is very hard for us, because we really wanted him to have a baby brother,” said Carl. “He just says that his brother’s gone to the angels.”
The pair, of Ellison Street, off Elwick Road, Hartlepool, met two-and-a-half-years ago and were thrilled when Ann-Marie fell pregnant in October last year.
But, 26-year-old Ann-Marie suffered several complications throughout the pregnancy.
On Friday last week she was admitted to the University Hospital of North Tees suffering with stomach pains, and it was then that medics discovered unborn Aston’s heart had stopped beating.
He is currently at Newcastle’s Royal Victoria Infirmary where pathologists are trying to establish how he died.
The couple say they are due to be re-united with Aston later this week, and are in the meantime selling the tiny untouched clothes, and other baby products, they had rallied around and bought for him, in a bid to raise money for his funeral.