That was the only word Jack Baldwin could find to sum up his emotion in the wake of last night’s goalless draw with Portsmouth.
The 19-year-old led the home side’s late charge for a winning goal and twice he smashed inches wide of the post.
Baldwin was named man-of-the-match afterwards, but that was no consolation given the missed opportunity to move from the bottom of the table.
“Frustrating is the word to describe it,” said the midfielder when asked for his reflection on the stalemate.
“If we’d got a goal I think the floodgates would have opened and it might have been three or four.
“I thought we dominated most of the game and they came here to get a point out of it – it felt like we were trying to get past more than 11.
“So it’s hard for us because we wanted to get the win and move three points closer to safety.
“It just leaves you feeling so frustrated afterwards.”
Baldwin took it upon himself to attempt to conjure up the moment of magic needed to break the deadlock.
The highlight of the game was his quick feet and injection of pace which took him through two Pompey defenders, only to see his low drill skid narrowly wide.
And he looked back: “I thought I’d scored to be honest. It fell at my feet and I thought I’d just try to squeeze through the two defenders – my pacy legs took me through!
“I had a glance and couldn’t see anyone to pass to so I had to take the shot on. It was agonising to watch it roll just past the post because I thought it was going to creep in.”
And, of his star-man prize, he went on: “I don’t think I had the best first half but in the second I came into it and picked up a few more second more balls, won headers and came close to scoring a couple of times.
“I enjoyed it in that more advanced midfield role and I thought I came into the game.
“I just wish I could have done something to get us the win – we were all desperate for it.”